It's like I didn't even notice it, suddenly the mornings are dark, the leafs are on the ground, and we've stopped going out for ice cream in the warm and bright evenings. Fall is definitely here and I've been so busy that I didn't even notice. I don't know how many times I opened my laptop to put some words down for the blog. But I just couldn't find the words. It's not like a classic writer's block, it's more like, I haven't had the time to really immerse myself in anything. Days have just gone by, mornings are starting early, and we have been sleeping terrible. I'm tired all the time and busy all the time with my studies and my work, and not least, my two small children. It doesn't leave many hours to creative thinking.
My daughters are growing, we've celebrated their birthdays in september. And I feel like I really have to take a good look at them before we go out the door in the morning. Just to remember how they look, because they're growing with each breath I take, and I swear when I pick them up from day care, they look just a bit older. I appreciate how some things about them always stay the same. Their messy morning hair, their chubby cheeks, which are red from the cold autumn wind, their deep, brown eyes and oh those long and dark lashes. All of this i try to capture in photographs.
Olivia just turned four. She's getting big. And at the same time she's still so little, finding new ways of exploring the world, making friendships and is beginning to ask big questions. She's very thoughtful and very bright. I love how easy her age is and at the same time, it's really frustrating how difficult it can be. I can still feel the transition from toddler into child. At the same time Elinor turned two, and is, except from when she falls asleep in my arms, not really a baby anymore. She's so independent and self-reliant, she's great at talking and does it all-the-time. She wants to be involved in everything all the time, there is no limit for her curiousity, she's always two steps ahead, or falling behind when something exciting catches her attention.
We've been talking much about doing some travelling. Just the four of us, spending time together, not having any plans other than just getting a bit closer. We really want to go for a longer period before Olivia starts pre-school in 1,5 year (I can't handle it). This coming spring I'll be finishing my master's degree, and many years of studying will be over. I'm really looking forward to finish my time at the university, but at the same time, it means that we have a lot of big decisions ahead of us. That scares me a bit. For now I'll try not to use all my energy on thinking about job, income and buying a house, and the biggest question: where to buy a house. Right now we are happy where we are, and when this semester is over, I'll be a bit less busy.
For now we'll try to keep it simple, try not to let the busy everyday get a hold of us. We'll enjoy our neighbourhood, the sunny days of fall, we'll go to the playground with coffee ind our hands, and to the foodmarket to buy warm soup. We'll buy flowers at the market, and talk to the old man with the pumpkins, who adore our little girls. We'll try to read more, and listen to music instead of leaving the television on. We'll let Bon Iver and Solange be the soundtrack to our fall.